Underneath all chaos there is an order in life. That order works with infinite intelligence. And if we start to look at our individual points of that chaos and use our will to examine the points of order in it we will find out that everything is moving towards a greater expansion.
In my individual point of awareness this realisation occurred while dealing with intense pain. Most people would run to look for a cure. Something to ease the pain. Something to make that go away. Maybe for some-one else to tell you what that pain was and how can it be cured. My soul has a rebel and stubborn power of will and it took a different path of exploration.
One day I woke up with excruciating pain on my shoulder. Just out of nowhere. It was so intense I didn’t know what to do with it. So I did what I do most of the times I find myself in these kinds of situations: I sat with it. Feeling it. Moving my attention towards it. Exploring it. So that I can become familiar with the structure of it.
Everyday I became more familiar with the little details of intense pain. I had many occasions in between to work with my thinking, feeling and mastering every vibration of energy that was created. Increasing the love and respect I felt for myself. When I’m healing a part of myself I love to add an intention that I am healing that in the collective and I can do this because I know that we are one. So when I get a chance to really dive deep into the darkness I know that I can pull so much light in even if it feels deeply uncomfortable. That is one of the gifts of my souls individual spark in wholeness.
Because of that stubborn way of thinking my shoulder started to teach me more. It was feeling better and then I hit into a door. It was feeling better and then I fell on the ice and hit that shoulder again so that only the sound of my breath and my awareness of that breath remained to cope with the pain. With tears running down my face I got up and walked home and…. I sat with it. No analysing, judging or making assumptions. Just becoming aware of the different sensations: feeling of tears running down, feeling of breath taking massive inhales to fill my body with the energy I need, feeling the movement of cells and tissues as they vibrate and are trying to find ways to bring back harmony. And the aliveness of everything happening simultaneously.
“We can consciously move towards the desired frequency and start moving the tones into higher octaves. “
One night I was exhausted. I had a day of dealing with other peoples worries. Supporting them and giving my best in every situation totally forgetting myself. Usually I remember to stop and take care of my own energy but this day I had no time for such pauses. It was like one moment of disaster after another just kept on coming and I was called to assist it to make harmony again. At the end of that day I collapsed with exhaustion and pain just ready to give up…But the stubborn mind wasn’t giving up ”maybe I can still meditate” – said the mind. So I got up and started to prepare to meditate. Feeling worse…. “ ok, maybe if I meditate for the world, maybe I have a better focus then”- said the mind again.
I focused again and was filled with what felt like a warning that if I don’t lie down now who knows what will happen. I take those feelings seriously and lied down and right at that time a pain mixed with exhaustion started to move in my body. Let me tell you if you observe a thing like that it becomes quite interesting.
Here again I had to make a decision: be a victim or the adventurer. Since the easy path was already explored in my youth and I found out it created only more chaos in life I realised there was only one thing to do. To take the adventure and merge with it. The tools for that kind of adventure are:
Move your breath in a way that the pain allows you to with least resistance
Relax your body
Repeat until free
See when you move your breath while relaxing your body you will find out that there are multiple ways to move that breath. It might feel small and tight at first but then you trigger more relaxation and you find a more clear passageway for it to flow smoothly. Ones you are on your way of expanding that without any thoughts about it just being with the sensations ( the pain too) you repeat until a breakthrough. What I explained before is that there are no beginnings and ends of sensations but we can consciously move towards the desired frequency and start moving the tones into higher octaves. So in a very practical way of of doing that we breathe, relax, expand and repeat until we are free, we let go.
That exploration took me into the awareness that pain can turn into bliss but in fact they are there at the same time and it is just our point of awareness that chooses what frequency we are focusing in. I spent a long time in just pure bliss totally aware of that pain but the feeling of pain changed and could no longer be called a pain. It was beautiful and natural at the same time. It was.
Be brave my adventurers there is lots to explore. Your mind has the power and your breath has the key. Your heart is the treasure. You can choose with the power of the will, explore with your awareness and be love as the intelligence of your heart.
You Are Always Loved.
©Emily Räisänen, pathtohigherheart.com